The Pendulum Swings - Dawngi Chawngthu

You stand in the doorway

Uncertain…hesitating
Enveloped in a blanket of darkness
Come to say goodbye – have you?
Or is it another re-union you seek

Sensing my withdrawal
You retreat…
The right thing for you to do
For you see I’m not so sure anymore
If I want to be with you

What is it you want from me anyway ?
A security blanket…
To keep you warm when it gets cold
And then to pack away
In warmer climate

Tell me what now
You say you love me
You say you need me
But what of him
Who precedes me

He’s an invisible wall between us
A wall too strong to cross
Erected even before we met
I guess you can’t jump over it
I guess you don’t want to jump over it…

Must be hard for you
To compartmentalize your life
A life with him where you feel trapped
And a life with me
Where you claim you are happy!

And what of me…
I swing with the pendulum
Sometimes happy, sometimes not.
When will the pendulum stop
At me happy…with you…forevermore.

Picture: Apa-Lelhchhun